Love Is All There Is

By Heidi Michel Fokine, February, 2017

Dear Yoga,

How long have we been at it, you and me? I’m not really sure. Let’s say forever.

I remember thinking how weird you were before we actually met. You looked kinda creepy. When we started hanging out together, the first thing I thought was “you are my future”. I was happy because it meant I  could still go barefoot most of the day. I felt great whenever you were around. You were so exotic and sexy and so, so elusive. The perfect storm. Those were spectacular years.

We’ve had our rough times, too.  I think I was trying to impress you, I wanted to do everything perfectly right. I used to feel guilty if I chose other friends over you. I was struggling to figure out who I was. It seemed important to know myself, which makes me laugh now, because these days all I want to do is lose myself…In YOU! I blamed you for my heartache, for all my aches. I thought of leaving you—you know I tried. I couldn’t understand what you were trying to tell me, even though you were saying it loud and clear: “LOVE IS ALL THERE IS”.

Now we’re always together. You make everything better. I’ve surrendered the struggle. Truthfully, I don’t know where I end and you begin. Crazy. How did I get so lucky to be loved by you? Is this sounding like a song? You’re the light at the end of the tunnel, you’re the horn in the fog, you’re the update to my energy field. Let’s go beyond the beyond.

The portal to infinity is the flicker of your kiss on my breath.

I love you.

Heidi Michel Fokine

A daydreamer by nature but not lacking the determination to pursue technique as a means to realize the dream, Heidi studied modern dance at North Carolina School of the Arts, graduating with a BFA in 1981. While working as a professional dancer in New York City she discovered yoga at Jivamukti in 1991, which led her to study in the Iyengar tradition with Genevieve Kapuler and Rodney Yee. She has also studied Light Body energy work and meditation with Diane Goldner, and movement with Martha Yoshida. She is currently studying Q'ero Shamanism with The Four Winds Society and is a full mesa carrier. Heidi acknowledges the influence her wonderful teachers and students have had on her life including her parents, sisters, husband Chris and sons Elias and Wyatt. She has been teaching on Shelter Island since 1995 and at Yoga Shanti in Sag Harbor since 1999 and was part of the faculty of the Yoga Shanti Teacher Training 2009-2014. She leads retreats and offers a 200hr TT at The Giving Room in Southold, NY.

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